In the twenty-five years “Paṇṇavīsativassāni, since I went forth, yato pabbajito ahaṁ; I have not found peace of mind, Accharāsaṅghātamattampi, even as long as a finger-snap. cetosantimanajjhagaṁ.

Since I couldn’t get my mind unified, Aladdhā cittassekaggaṁ, I was racked by desire for pleasures of the senses. kāmarāgena aṭṭito; Wailing, with outstretched arms, Bāhā paggayha kandanto, I left my dwelling. vihārā upanikkhamiṁ.

Shall I … or shall I commit suicide? Satthaṁ vā āharissāmi, What’s the point of living? Ko attho jīvitena me; For how on earth can one such as me die Kathaṁ hi sikkhaṁ paccakkhaṁ, after resigning the training? Kālaṁ kubbetha mādiso.

Then I picked up a razor, Tadāhaṁ khuramādāya, I sat on a cot: mañcakamhi upāvisiṁ; the razor was ready Parinīto khuro āsi, to slice my vein. dhamaniṁ chettumattano.

Then the realization Tato me manasīkāro, came upon me—yoniso udapajjatha; the danger became clear, Ādīnavo pāturahu, and I was firmly disillusioned. nibbidā samatiṭṭhatha.

Then my mind was freed—Tato cittaṁ vimucci me, behold the clear rightness of the teaching! passa dhammasudhammataṁ; I’ve attained the three knowledges, Tisso vijjā anuppattā, and fulfilled the Buddha’s instructions. kataṁ buddhassa sāsanan”ti.

… Sappadāso thero ….